I’m 61 years old and have done karaoke exactly twice. The first time was a smashing success. I sang the Ramone’s, “I Wanna Be Sedated,” at my 70 year old mother’s local hangout, to rousing applause.
The next time was about 10 years later at a tiny, empty, dive bar, in Key West. I was with a
he came up on
an eagle on a sandbar
looking over his shoulder
bloody beak dripping
with dead cormorant
it lost the gaze
and flew up and away
leaving him to wonder
about the falling man / t
in the newspaper / h
or was it real life / e
fear is a lesson / f
she taught him well / a
bloody anus of
the beginning is not the beginning, this is how it starts but this is not the beginning, the beginning was before, the beginning was before that time, that time was a new beginning, that time was a death and a rebirth, the beginning was the beginning, then there was death, a death, the death, followed by a slow re-entry, a
i’m lucky that it happened so long ago. i was lucky before the internet. cameras existed including polaroid instants but they weren’t present at that time. the only images of my abuse are fading in the aging brains on which they’re stored. there were five of them — brains not pictures. three abusers one witness and one victim.
I am a sixty-one-year-old white male of English and Irish descent. I have a genetic disposition for acne, baldness and depression. I am taller than average and slender. Clothing rarely fits me well. I was lied to as a child and things were done to me that should never be done to another human being. I kept that a secret
i got my first crown just one month into the shut-in, shut-down, whatever you call it, the beginning of the time when everything changed, when the before and after split, when nothing changed. i had been dutifully avoiding contact. I meant to say ravishfully. introvert’s wet dream, eh? it was traumatic because (the crown)
was my first, terrified by
The title of this post refelects the fact that this was the first thing I published on my previous Wordpress Blog. All new WP installations include a default "Hello World" post so instead of deleting that I just edited it to this.
My full name is Eric Benvenue-Jennings. I was born Eric Jennings but I added Benvenue when I got
It is not known what his disposition was as an infant but it is assumed that he was born innocent, curious, bright. His parents were mostly absent, the father physically, spending his days looking for work (or at the motorcycle clubhouse being teased like a child by his mates), the mother emotionally, having spent her scant nurturing abilities on the
This past Sunday I opened the NY Times to see the screaming headline, “The Internet Is Overrun With Images of Child Sexual Abuse. What Went Wrong?” I then read the article which as impressive as it was disturbing.
The first thing that impresses is the formatting, layout and presentation. The headline was dramatic enough but the experience of clicking through
My first reaction upon seeing the recent #MeToo campaign was to join the chorus because I am also a survivor of sexual abuse. Speaking out has been helpful to my recovery. By being outspoken I want to let other sexual abuse survivors know they are not alone and maybe even to encourage some of them to break their silence. After