what we love is what we hope is who we are

For most of my life, I felt disconnected and adrift. My childhood was marked by abuse and neglect. I never felt like I belonged to my birth family. The thing I remember most about being young is the longing I felt, though I knew not for what. I carried a…

My Vertical Interrogation

I believe I am the figment of a little boy’s imagination. He’s trying to imagine himself in the future. In a different future than the one he expects. I am ten years old imaging I am sixty-three.…

A Bad Fall, and a Return

(This is part of a series. You can read related posts here.) I had a bad fall. As in the season. My mood generally turns dour around September, but then usually gets better by Thanksgiving. My birthday is in September, but I've never felt that that was a…

99942 Apophis

the allegiance of flag to the death I, 99942 Apophis, pledge to the heat of Typhaon, serpent ruler OR for which it holds a nation to salute under mythology the sun— with bones and uniform for all. crocodile should be called by the sun facing the OR with the united…